Tuesday, July 27, 2010

My Last Shot?

Well the last round of chemotherapy didn't work, so we're trying something new. This new type of chemo shows some promise, but unfortunately it has a number of side-effects. It's not a cure but tests have shown that it can add a few months of quality time to a cancer patients life so we're going to give it a shot. The key word here is "quality". If it turns out that it makes me sick all the time or has some major side effects, I will probably refuse further treatment. That may sound like I'd be giving up, but that's not the case. As I said before, I want to spend as much quality time as I can with my family and being sick all the time is not my idea of quality time. I'd rather have 3 good months than 5 or 6 lousy ones. Does that make sense? Perhaps not, but that's the way I see it. We'll just have to wait and see what happens I guess.

Whatever happens, I've sure learned a lot from all this. Most of the things I used to think were major events just don't seem very important anymore. The only things that really matter to me now are God, family and good friends, in that order. I've also discovered that people that I thought were my friends really aren't and my real friends are people I'd never have suspected even cared. It's strange how people you think care really don't and some folks you didn't even thing cared really do. God is sure opening my eyes to all these little tidbits. Hard to think of cancer being a blessing, but in some ways it is. It sure has taught me a lot about love and caring and how I should be treating other people. We are all God's children, so if you disrespect one of His children, you're also disrespecting Him. Faith, hope and love are three of the greatest gifts He's given us, and the greatest of these is LOVE! Pretty simple but so hard to practice.

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